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Chernobyl





This is the story that I've written for one of my previous class subject. Just now I was looking for  one of my another assignment, but I had found this story out. Haha... So hoping to share at here and at least there is someone really take the heart to finish it. I know is quite a long paragraphs.
But.. ... Enjoy, anyway!

Chernobyl.

            Daniel, Nici, Roy and Elaine were good friends. They always played together, worked together, and even slept together. They were studying journalism in Donetsk National University, Ukraine.
            Daniel has short hair, single-edged eyelid sunny boy. He is 185cm, the tallest in them. He was the team leader of basketball in the university because he is talented in playing basketball. This made his character even further self aloof and sometimes the people around him had a hard time getting along with him. Besides, he was pursuing his classmate, Nici. He fell for her when he first meets her at a basketball court.
            Nici has long pretty hair with big eyes and she is a little chubby girl with a well developed shape. She was kind. As she passed the basketball court on the first day in the university, she saw Daniel had injured on his foot so she quickly took him to the clinic. This was how they met and became friends. But, she was a neural sensitive person. When someone calls her for an adventure, she will reject them for certain. She thinks and worries too much to go for adventure; she does not take risks. There was once, during the last Halloween, she was being bullied by a bunch of her classmate. But luckily that night Daniel was there to save her from them. Yet, she never accepts Daniel’s pursue because of his overexposed confidence. But this did not affect their friendship in between the gang. Nici has a god brother in the class, Roy.
            Roy was bareheaded, short, small eyes and wearing a thick-framed glass with a well-bred look. He was the only good in theory studies but not in practical studies. He was introvert, not sociable and he was coward. Last few weeks, Daniel just simply craps that there was a pneumatic waver in toilet at every 12am and he was afraid for almost a week. Elaine was his secret love, which was his god sister, Nici best buddy. He never tells anyone, including Nici.
            Elaine knew Nici since they were 10 years old. Elaine, she was brave girl. She dared to say and do anything. She never once cared about what others will think of her. She was tall, slim, and she had a long and silky brown hair. She treated everyone good, especially Roy. She accompanied him for that whole week due to what Daniel had mentioned about the pneumatic waver story. Everyone was saying that Roy is her secret love. But then they just remain friends. Roy did not believe that such a pretty girl will fall for him.
            In class, Nici sat with Elaine while Daniel sat with Roy. Nici and Elaine were just both sitting in front of them. They used to turn around and joke about a lot of stuff. But Roy will just sit there and read books.
            “Good morning to everyone!” said Ms.Kailee. “Today I will give a project to the journalism students to do a survey report for me on some disaster places. I already picked out some places for you guys.” 
            Everyone started getting scared. Nici turned around and looked at Roy with a helpless look. They started to pray for God's bless. While Daniel and Elaine still looked fine if Ms.Kailee really distributed them to the place where they will be just fine with it.
            “Nici.” called Ms.Kailee. Nici was so scared and slowly put up her shaky hands and said: “Yes.”  “You've been distributed to Chernobyl Disaster in Ukraine to do the project. Please get me the correct information of the past 25 years of Chernobyl. And please go and find your partners. Four in a group.” said Ms. Kailee.
            At the moment, Nici was shocked and stunned at there. “Crap! Dammit! How could it be?! Oh my god!” Nici grumbled silently.
            Everyone knew that Chernobyl Nuclear Power Plan had been considered the worst nuclear power plant accident in history, and is one of only two classified as a level 7 event on the International Nuclear Event Scale. In Chernobyl, its population had been around 50,000 prior to the accident. Most of them been killed. The rest of residents all became seriously ill from the radiation. They were mutants, they born deformed baby. They did not look like normal people anymore. According to rumors, this place had been considered as a death city, some even mentioned it as ghost town. The point is that the place had been left uncultivated for 25 years after the accident had happened. No development, no people in and out from the city. Chernobyl is totally freaking them out. The government had sealed the town for 25 years!
            Nici was trying to ask for another place. But seemed Ms.Kailee did not want to bother her much. “Try your best to build a good team and give me a good report of the place. You and your team are our future journalist.” said Ms.Kailee.
            Nici looked so upset and felt so helpless. She then gave out eye signal to Daniel, Elaine and Roy asking them to be with her in a team.
            Ring~ It’s 1 o’clock. Ms.Kailee class had dismissed. Daniel is the first one who say yes to Nici because he knows that she needs him. Elaine was in because they are best buddy, doing anything together. While Roy he opposed to join them in the beginning. Actually they always do projects in the same team but this time the odds made Roy hesitated. But in the end, luckily Elaine successfully persuaded him to join.
            They started to discuss about the project. They said it will take 4 hours to do the survey in Chernobyl town, Nici started to oppose.
            “I feel that 4 hours is too long and too dangerous to stay in a dead city or even ghost town. Don’t you all remember that everyone said that is a dead city? Many of the workers there died or attained serious defects from the radiation. ” said Nici.        
            Roy then kept nodded his head and indicated that he agreed with Nici.
            Elaine looked at Daniel. They both opposed what Nici said.
            Daniel started to analyze the time to the plan and told them that it is not enough for surveying a town.
            “Chernobyl is big. It consists of kindergartens, schools, gyms, buildings, hospitals and even an abandoned amusement park. We decided to spend only 4 hours for the survey is already a limitation. We are in a rush. This was 25 years ago, it doesn't affect us, this generation anymore.” said Daniel.
            Nici and Roy started to agree with them.
            “It takes time to do a survey on a school, needless to say a city? If the place is in danger, do you think that Ms.Kailee will even put this place into consideration?” said Elaine comforting Nici and Roy.  
            They both then nodded and agreed with what had Daniel and Elaine said.
            On the next day, they prepared their things such as voice recorder, camcorder, water and some food. They departed later that morning. They drove a Daniel’s Ford F150, setting off to Chernobyl. After some time, they reached. The sun was on top on their head. It was noon. The first impression for them of the place was the sign on the road to Pripyat, the town where the workers of the nuclear plant lived. Prypiat used to be proud for being home to the Chernobyl Nuclear Power Plant workers. But, after the violent explosion those good times were history.
            They looked around and tried to find anyone who is still living there. But, so far they did not see anyone along the way. The city looked like a dead city resembling the movie Resident Evil. They went to one of the deserted secondary school in Chernobyl to start collecting information. They set off everything, camcorder and voice recorder. Daniel was the head of the team. Since Nici was too anxious, so Daniel took over and led them. Nici then took turns of the voice recorder while Roy was the cameraman. Elaine was the host for the project.
            “The schools have remained relatively intact considering the problems with looters eight years ago. I guess books don’t hold much value to the poor.” said Elaine. She started her speech with what she had seen. “Children will never run here again.” said Elaine continued with what she thought.
            “Cut. Good take.” said Daniel. They then moved to another place – gym class. Everyone looked around and felt that the atmosphere in there was extremely horrible and uncomfortable. Nici started to ask them to make haste and finished everything fast. She felt something was wrong with the building. And suddenly Roy stunned there and pointed at the corner of the gym class. Everyone was afraid and slowly turned around and see what happened.
            There was a man crouched there. He was deformed, bald, wearing worn clothing and he looked so ill. Nici and Roy started to stay backward while Elaine move forward and took a clear look for the old man. She then asked them to take action for shooting this as they can make an interview for information. Initially, Daniel, Nici and Roy were refused to do that because they felt that something wrong with the man crouched there. But, Elaine shouted at them once again to start recording. They had to follow the instructions.
            Elaine stepped forward to the old man. This time she can clearly see that an old man tooth was sharp and long. Suddenly, Elaine stunned. She seemed seeing something fleeting from his mouth. The old man was eating a living rabbit.
            “Run!” screamed Elaine. Everyone was shocked because they did not know what happened that had made Elaine felt so terrible. Also, the scream had gotten the old man's attention. He started to put away the dead rabbit.
            Elaine was so afraid, she can't even move from there. The old man stood up and walked close to Elaine. Nici intended to go and save her. She never want to lose her best friend. But, Daniel did not let her go.
            “This is too late, Nici.” said Daniel.
            Nici cried and shouted to Elaine, wishes to wake her up from trapped in afraid. The old man pulled out his hand and straight away grabbed Elaine and bite. They quickly run and stopped the project. When they wanted to escape, they only realized that Roy already gone. He escaped himself silently and not even intended to save Elaine. He was willing to let his beloved die. Nici was so sad that her god brother had treated a friend like piece of garbage. Elaine’s body was poorly bitten by that old man. There was blood everywhere.
            “Why the hell are we here for our project? What’s wrong with Ms.Kailee?” cried Nici complaining to Daniel. “I had told you this is not good. There is definitely something wrong with this place! No grandpa has sharp teeth, especially one that bites!”
            Daniel stayed silent. Kept running with Nici to a safer place. Nici was in a totally panic and she just wants to go back home. She did not want to stay there any longer. They ran off from the deserted secondary school. Initially, Nici still want to find Roy. But, Elaine death recalled her back and she gave up for him.
            The Sun is setting as they walked out from the building. Shadows from the trees and buildings around them grew longer. Nightfall is getting close. Both of them got shocked, they had finally understood why there was no one in the daytime but during the night when the sun goes down, everyone starts coming out. There were old men, old ladies crouched aside. Some with no cloths on. With bloody mouth due to eating living creatures. Affected by the radiation, these monsters cannot see but they can feel their breathing. The monsters stopped eating and tried to feel their breathing because they heard the sound when they stepped out from the school. They had to hold their breath and ran quickly and silently to avoid alerting them. As they seen, there was no plantation at all. A place that had left uncultivated for 25 years grows nothing but fear.
            When Daniel and Nici walked half way to another building which was hospital, Roy suddenly ran out from the school. He never knew that the monsters were blind. As long as he holds his breath and walked away, he could escape himself.  But, he was too scared and breathed so hardly because he saw many of them outside. He could not stay calm and pretended nothing was out there. He looked around and he saw some lignum wood. He lighted it up. Thinking the fire could save him from them. But it backfired, instead of scaring them away it attracted more monsters to him. He died struggling. His body was torn into pieces of minced meat for the monsters to consume. Every hungry monster fought wildly, just to get a piece of his body.
            Daniel and Nici felt so sad to see the tragedy happened on their buddies. They continued ran through the hospital and finally they saw there was an exit just next to the hospital. But there were too many of the monsters out there and they could not get to the exit. They only can hide inside the hospital until the next morning. They walked in and stayed closely to each other so that they can mutual support each other. Once they stepped in to the hospital, the atmosphere was so damn creepy. Feelings like many eyes around looking at them. But, they cannot see anything because there was no electric current inside the dead town.
            “Daniel, can we go out? We just don’t stepped further. Is too dark inside and I can’t see anything else.” said Nici with trembling voice. 
            “Are you sure out there is safer than here? There is monsters everywhere.” said Daniel.
            Nici be at a loss. She did not know what decision to make is the best. But she knew that as long as Daniel is with her then everything will be fine.
           She continued follow where Daniel goes. She started to hold his hand tight because she cannot see anything. When they walked into the hospital corridor, suddenly Nici stepped a pool of water. They stunned.          
            “Grrrr… ...” They heard some voice. They wanted to know where was the voice comes from. But, they scared. They knew that not only from one but many of them.
            “Grr… …” The voice came more nearer to them. They hold their breath and kept move backward. There was a rock on the floor and Nici never notice. She fell down. She screamed out loud. This makes them easier to find them.
            Daniel quickly put his hand to cover her mouth and hold breathing.
The monster started to find them. They move slowly and carefully to find the sound. They smelled every corner to detect their breath. When the monsters passed through them, they finally can loosen their tension. They thought the monsters were gone. But was actually one turning back and looked at them. They never know.
Daniel the first one stood up and carried Nici. The monster straight away flapped on Nici. Daniel tried to rescue Nici. He tried to pull away the monster. Kicked it away and punch it. Nici succeed in escaping while Daniel involved himself to the monster. The monster was alerting more monsters to come over for Daniel. Daniel knew that he could not escape himself away from them. So, he was willing to sacrifice himself for saving Nici.
            “Run! Run as fast as you can.” shouted Daniel to Nici. “Don’t bother me!” He left the last word.
Nici was be at a loss and be forced to listen what Daniel said. She cried while running away from the building.
She came to the second floor. She saw Medical Store Room. She was moving a step followed a step silently go inside the room. She scared she saw a monster again. She saw a cupboard. When she opened the cupboard, she saw many medical scalpels dropped out. She fit herself and hid into the cupboard.
She kept crying silently. She cannot accept what had just happened in a day. She had been distributed in a group with her good friends for journalism project.
They came to the the worst nuclear power plant in history. They thought the residents were deformed in physical appearance only. The place had been uncultivated for 25 years ago. Never of them think was the place end up like a total resident evil.
They never knew. They never knew. This was Ms.Kailee mistake. Nici came in 4 people to Chernobyl. And now just left her.
She felt asleep. Staying in the cupboard for almost 4 hours.
She knew that she could not stay like this anymore. She cannot just be a coward anymore. She knew that no one could save her away from the hell place. Only herself.
She wiped away the tears on her face. She told herself she had to be strong, very strong only she could escape from here. Save herself away from here could be worthy of Daniel.
She came out from the cupboard. She picked up the medical scalpels as something that could protects herself. The night was gone. She looked at the window just next to the cupboard. The monsters activities finally came to an end. Suddenly, there was a monster standing behind her.
“Grr… …” she felt the voice again. But, this time she calmed. She turned around and poked its right eye.
The monster screamed painfully. Nici quickly jump out from the window and kept running to the big fence which they first came from. The sun rise up. She saw there was the sign on the road to Pripyat and Daniel’s car.
She smiled. She knew she was saved.







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逃过是福,逃不过是祸

同一个环境,同一个屋檐,却不知道是不是同一个模糊的脸庞。

不知到是不是同样的配角上演,却只知道是同一个故事大纲。

那一个同样的剧情,同一个恐慌的心情... ...

一个接着一个陌生既熟悉的人在你身边死掉... ...

那一个最后的主角,带着微小的生命奔跑,跑到最前头的大门,才发现原来是锁的。

心里冒着很多的该怎么办,措手不及的恐慌,是否又会死在同一个地方,同一个情况?

我... ... 不想死掉。

不想这样子死掉。

为什都是同一个地方,同一个情景,同一个环节,同一个故事?

为什么最终的大门是还是一样的上锁?

又为什么都卡在同一个地方?

时间、天色都可以反复地相同。

每一次到这里,一定要逼自己醒过来。

深怕自己不再醒过来,或许迟疑的一秒钟我就再也没有办法醒过来了。

太逼真的那一种恐惧,害怕入睡的心情,我终于知道为什么我都不敢一个人睡,为什么我都不敢在夜里睡着。

原来这个故事跟随我这么久了,我却今天才发现到原来我反复都在做同一个与死亡有关的梦。


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音乐感情

好享受这种与音乐靠这么近的感觉。

那一种闭上眼你仿佛能够感受到手指在玩弄这些旋律的快感。

然后那些一鼓一击拍打在你心中的旋律,那个感觉真的很棒。

闭上眼睛仿佛自己就与那些音符沉睡在空中,模糊的漂浮着。

多久了没在夜里把耳机塞进耳朵,好好听歌。

这一种细心品尝好歌的细腻,是很棒的方法。

如果很不幸运的听到烂歌,也只能按 “NEXT”。

因为耳机靠很近,听到的一定比较仔细,要是烂歌还这样听法,它就剥夺你的休息时间。

很多人说:“我只会谈感情,不会弹钢琴。”

钢琴复杂还是感情复杂?

呵!如果可以,我宁可学会弹钢琴,再谈感情。

就算你遇到的多不好,要是你真的爱上了,用心的爱上了,我告诉你不管那个人有多少缺点,你依旧会包容。

但是,时间往往就是让人家改变这一切的理由。

当你真的用心爱了,不管什么都是好的;当你变心了,不管什么都是坏的。

这个世界真的没有放不下的事情,也就只是你自己的心态 要还是不要。

就好像当你发现一首好歌,你会愿意不停的播放不管什么时候;但是很多时候我们听腻了,就会开始慢慢停止播放这首歌。

要是它无意间的再让你听见,相信这美好的歌也只能是曾经的美好,在这深夜里绝对不会让它继续打搅。

你可以去执着的争取你要的真相,但是你要劝服你自己一定要相信你争取回来的事实。

傻子的执著过,努力的争取过,如果事实不是你要的结果,那就让不属于你的放手让他走。




我真的没有后悔我后悔。
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那首歌

终于看到了那部戏。

结局还真的让人啃咽。

他们纯纯的喜欢,慢慢变成浓浓的爱。

最终都没有办法走在一起的两个人。

我只是观众,我只能说我可以感受到那些年发生在他们的身上的画面,可以感受到那一份错过的心情。

身为当事人的九把刀和沈佳宜,又有何感想?

会不会想把时间扭转,倒回去追逐那个错过的幸福?

还是说:那都过去了,就算回到过去又如何?确定那一份感情还是一样吗?现在的他 / 她是幸福的,祝福。

如果那一次柯京腾鼓起勇气的,没有阻止沈佳宜说出答案的,或许,他们会在一起。

虽然结局让人不欢,可是彼此都拥抱了属于自己的幸福,没有拆散。

就这样... ... 那些年就这样成为他们心中最美好、最不想忘记的回忆。


爱,本来就是纯纯的,不复杂。

这个故事简直赚多人类的泪水,太写实。

人类都害怕错过,但都往往错过。

有些人抓着该放手的事,有些人却放手了该抓着的事。

等你醒来的时候,时间已不能再为你倒退了。


那一天,女孩醉了,但却还清醒的。

刚好车子里播放了那首歌。

女孩告诉了说:

“ 因为幸福不等人
   因为时间不等人
   所以我们都找错的人 结婚。

   十年后的我们
   身边都有了另一个人。”

说完,女孩都哭了。

好久好久,女孩都不敢听那一首歌,因为一起喜欢那首歌的人已经不再她身边了。

这一次,女孩终于鼓起勇气,勇敢地把那部片子看了。

其实,需要勇气的不是那部片子,不是那首歌,而是不听话的那些回忆。
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失眠

       最怕夜深人静的空间,原本喧哗的房子个个都睡着去了。剩下风扇不停打转的声音掩盖了整个寂静。还有谁会在这个时候陪着我醒呢?藕断丝连的思绪不停纠缠着我的眼皮,疲惫的身子不停地在床上翻滚又翻滚。眼睛只好不停往手机盯了又盯,手痒痒地按了一键又一键,想说哪个谁来打搅一些也不为过吧?

        不知道是要开课了还是没有酒精的麻醉定还是没有那熟悉的怪手在,我近来都在与睡眠过不去。痛苦不是我当上了夜猫子,痛苦是因为我明明就累得疲的呢可却没有办法到周公那儿。夜生活少了可真不爽啊!每一次约都不行,这个那个,还有什么非洲理由,拜托爽直一点啦!优柔寡断很娘娘腔。

      有时候深夜了爱玩的就反正眼皮都是盖不下来了,倒不如把眼睛睁大大看看伸手不见五指的黑暗,我是否真的可以看到一些东西。可是,我妈妈就是在生我的时候忘了生胆给我了,我也只好闭上眼睛不敢再做多诱惑躲在漆黑背后的东西。可见,闭上眼对我来说还是安全点。

      墙上挂着的时钟没有慈祥的为我停下任何的脚步。长短不一的脚指很卖力的一步一步向左转。一个圆圈画一个圆圈,三个家伙都很卖力的干活着,仿佛一偷懒就会世界末日。 1点了, 2点了, 3点了!妈呀!这是我最不想熬过的时间。放个假,我都得这么痛苦的睡着嘛? 三粒钟的时间我做了好多翻滚动作,消耗的卡路里多么?不见得呗。向左边比较好睡;不,向右边比较好睡;不,左边;不,右边。靠!翻滚多少次才可以睡?

     嗯,有了!耳机,听歌。向右边睡,好睡。[夜的第七章] 、[让爱从生]、[忘了爱]、[Come In With The Rain]、[下雨天]、[我不愿让你一个人]... ... 不知道,不知道这个演唱会唱了多久,我才被动听的旋律怂恿的睡下去。最怕的不是睡不着,而是就算演唱会结束了我依然还是清醒的。

    每一天的终结,那些有事没事干的梦总是藕断丝连的为我每一天的结局给我很深刻的思绪,好像真的一样。

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嘘... 安静的别管我了。

嘘... 走开我不需要被可怜。

嘘... 我不需要被关心、被担心,我很OK!

嘘... 我对不起啦!
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七十亿分之一

无声的街道,是我疯狂打破寂静。

一个摔跤吗?我不记得了。

一个呐喊吗?嗯... 我真的不记得了。

那一个熟悉的拥抱,再一次我拥进怀里,我一样... 还是喜欢那感觉。

你的背终究属于我的。哈!或许... 了吧!

你依然 依旧 还是 要我等你。

喂!诸葛菀!你真没品!

马车坏了吗?还是南瓜因为3点了所以变小了呢?


最后的狼狈,

最后的崩溃,

最后一次抱着你,感受那个原本属于我一个人的背,

最后一次和你靠这么近,

最后的... 我捏你的脸颊。

外星人猪,怎么都不听话?你又瘦了... 傻瓜

=]

最后的七十亿分之一,你真是活该 执着 日全蚀的盲目。

请还记得 谁第一次牵起手

谁记得 谁第一次不肯走


第一次 永远就停在那时候


以后我 再想念 也不能回头
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长大了

周杰伦唱得对啊听妈妈的话绝对没有错。

不管以后什么跟什么就喊一声 [咪, 你觉得叻?] 就够了。

她 says NO,我就 NO。

=]


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I'm the princess in my life

悬崖,公主回来了。

跌了一身伤,好辛苦再爬到这一个荒废已久的悬崖。

清静了许久,没人陪厚?

公主回来啦!

不与寂寞做朋友,因为公主在了。

公主赶功课,快烦死了,但有谁懂?

朋友都还不错,都在第一时间帮公主了!

要不然公主现在已经疯掉了。

归来这个属于我的世界,我真的很谢谢。

那一夜的再次烂醉,让我看清什么跟什么。

那一夜的再次崩溃,让我吓坏多少人啊!

全场停顿在我一霎那的啃咽,我多狼狈让人担心。

可我却烂醉,隔天才晓得。

唯一不变的,我还是你们心中的公主。

谢谢你们。=]








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那些年

每个人都有每个人的那些年。

虽然我还没把那本书看完,电影也还没看。

我原本以为故事中的男女主角是 Happy Ending,可是不是。

有个人告诉了我结局,我起了鸡皮疙瘩,好替他们惋惜。

这个故事真的是那些年我们每个人都会经历的过去。


我的那些年... 却想到你。

阔别这么久的时间,我们的变化起了很大的反差。

从陌生变熟悉,到最后还是回到我们最陌生的记忆。

这篇给你。

那些年,你坐在我前面。

那些年,我很爱欺负你,用了蓝色、红色、搞不好都有黑色原子笔把你的两只手都乱画。

那个时候,你说你妈妈会骂,可我还是继续乱乱画。

那些年,你也很爱欺负我,老是把 “猪” 挂在嘴边,然后和他们一起嘲笑人家。

那些年,你半用心半调皮的教我做数学,答不上你就骂我 “猪”。

想起的那些年,脑海还浮现你用手指指着我然后你叫我 “猪” 的嘴型。

那些年,  我们一起分享了我们的秘密。

那些年,我们互相鼓励给彼此最好的加油。

那些年,中学的快乐时光,不属于我们现在的生活,永远都被埋葬过去。

那些年,你画过给我的画,如今还是我很美的一段回忆,我都还收藏好。

你呢?还记得我们的那些年吗?

呵呵...

曾经的那些年,多少人还是渴望它是美好的。

曾经的那些年,有谁想把它忘了?

那些年,我们曾经的美好。

现在我们什么都不是,不是情人,不是知己,也不是朋友了。

喂... 你过得好吗?

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风筝

曾经听闻,谈恋爱就像放风筝。

什么时候收一些在乎, 什么时候放多点感情, 酝酿妥当,你的风筝就不会这么容易跌下来。

有些人掌着自己手势好, 同时放多几个风筝在天空飞翔。

有些人却愿意耐性的慢慢摸索, 用心守护这一只风筝。

也有些人因为太过放纵,不小心把线都放完。

风筝飞走了。

但偏偏,我的风筝, 我抓得很紧。

曾经释怀过, 却还是没办法收放自如, 因为我太在乎。
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我们都忘了

今天没有不一样

可能都太忙

时间都遗忘

拍摄赶进度 Assignment 一大堆

一些拖了好久都还没交

这一个sem 讨厌死了

“如果1000万可以买回你要的过去,回到你要的那一刻,你会吗?” 周哲铭说。

我犹豫了。

这可是我一直的梦,盼望着回到过去,盼望着时光机。

可... 这一次,我认真了。

1000万不是小数目,谁不想要找回从前的快乐,谁不想要阻止悲伤发生?

如果可以的话,我也想做着时光机,然后和现在的你们说声拜拜的,咻~ 一声的,哈罗!我们又见面啦!好朋友... 然后继续过着无知少年的生活。


昨天我们都没记得

都没忘记

只是时间不允许

原来我们 7个月了



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开口中

最近,我看这世界很灰。

很多不好的事情一直不停不断的发生。

那,好!他汽车坏掉,我们转搭公共交通。

那天晴天霹雳,在巴士上坐足了 1粒钟。

我就开玩笑的说:“信不信,等一下要到的时候肯定下毛毛雨,然后,下车时就倾盆大雨?回到家要冲凉就没水,要吹头发又没电,要睡觉床架刚好烂掉?”

他笑笑的说:“哈哈!怎么可能酱衰啊?如果是酱,我们就真的很衰。”

说完,我们继续等那死人巴士绕绕绕。

话说没多久,就看到有水滴在巴士大镜上。

我心想:妈呀!不是真的这么准吧!瓦靠!

“开口中!” 我说。

“你看。我都说了。”

结果雨越下越大。
如果我有魔力,我希望明年世界末日。
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真心话


真心话:

今天第一天没有你在我身边,我真的觉得很不习惯,很不喜欢。

做什么都想到你,干嘛都想到你,我到现在都不肯睡。

其实,睡觉就会让时间过得快,等你的时间不用这样长。

可偏偏,我睡不着。

想你还是想你的说。

我就是要用更多时间来想念你。

<3


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我爱的人

我喜欢你早上挤好的牙膏,模糊的小眼睛。

你的笑容总是把眼睛笑得弯弯的,好像两条弯弯的线。

我喜欢你不管多忙你还是会想到我先才顾到自己。

我感动你就是为了我做了很多很多。

我喜欢你爱我的态度。

我喜欢的歌你会在第一时间练了唱给我听。

你知道我喜欢张芸京,你想尽办法让我与她有最接近的接触。

你让我拿到她的亲笔签名,让我亲耳听到她对我说声:“谢谢。”

你知道我喜欢她,你想尽办法拿到票,让我见到她。

你陪我去你不爱人挤的地方,你就是这么宠爱我。

我喜欢你不嫌弃我,可却假装那边埋怨的样子;我就是喜欢你爱演戏的模样。

我喜欢你喜欢这样的我,愿意付出更多却不喊累。

我喜欢你越来越体贴的照顾。

我喜欢你越来越在乎我的感受。

我喜欢一直在你面前丑化自己就为博你一笑。

我喜欢在你面前鸡哩呱啦讲个不停。

我喜欢你一直笑得翻天腹地的说:“Hiak hiak hiak, 你真的是可爱。”

我喜欢你说我的形容词很特别;其实我更喜欢你说你很喜欢。

我喜欢你说:“我从来没有听过酱好笑的形容词,看过酱搞笑的人,从来没有怎么样怎么样........,你是第一个。”

我听了很开心,因为我说过你可以是别人的 special edition, 但我却要是你的 limited edition.

我喜欢看你每一个表情,尤其是 耸了的时候。

有时候就是忍不住想要作弄你一下下。

因为我担心你突然安静..


你知道吗?

你为我做的,我都感受到,都有看到。

你的改变我都看到。

你的所有快乐悲伤我都感受到。

只是我真的不知道该怎么形容我的感受。

记得,我的拥抱都是紧的,因为这是我最真的感受。

抱紧你,请不要喊喘不过气,因为爱你所以不想要有任何的缝裂,感受最真的你。

曾经我说,我梦见你是我虚幻的人物,你不存在。

我是真的很怕,睡醒你就不在身边。

我不要一个对我这么好的人就只是虚幻。

我知道那是真的,可却还是害怕。

那种曾经拥有却失去的感受,真的... 真的无法形容。

我一直都捏你,是因为你真的是我的了。

我爱的人,周宥嘉!






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讽刺

仰望着无边无际的天空,心里一阵悲;嘴角却上扬;讽刺地,眯成线的眼,落干了吗?

蔚蓝色的天空,漂浮着阵阵凉风,心里仿佛也被吹得冷冷的,抖了一下。

看着天空,咦!是大太阳照射大地呢!

温热的双手,却没有办法把冰冷的心冷却。

讽刺..

对这个世界喊痛,谁会听见心房的讯号?

不是一把刀的痛,不是一支针的痛,而是无言的痛。

什么都不怕,却害怕那一种看不见明天美丽的时候。

或许冰冷的心逐渐冰冷了手,慢慢地我的世界又再度被封锁了吗?

我落难的悬崖,又该让我回去了,是吗?

别等我了,距离悬崖,我已走了好远,我不想再回去那个地狱。

我朝着幸福的光芒走着,黑暗的魔咒远离我吧!


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让你知道

害怕的心情谁能明了?

那一种莫名的悲伤突然涌上的,该怎么说明?

那一刻,我没有想很多。

我吓坏了,不知所措。

我没有想过会这么严重,我没有想过这些。

我慌的了,失去思考能力;我乱的了,失去判别能力。

我... 是真的吓坏了。

那一刻,我没有想太多。

我只要好好陪在你身边,我不想离开你,不想都不想。

听好了,不管什么,你是我的,我是你的,知道吗?笨蛋!



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好人

I used to say that he or she not good. He or she very bad. This and that not good. But.. Actually I'm the one. I'm not a good girl.
=']
N-for-Nothing
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我爱我喜欢

心情不好的时候,我超想到海边。

看着无边无际的天空连着蓝色的海洋,这是幸福的感觉。

海风飘拂着脸颊,海水洋溢浪潮,听听海水拍打石头的声音...

啊... 这是多么的美。

想念槟城的海,槟城的美景。



心情不好的时候,我超想吃冰。

以前只懂的欣赏巧克力口味,现在我可爱死抹茶。

口里含着一口又一口的抹茶,直到溶化。

浇熄了心中的不愉快...

吃冰,我的最爱。

有事没事,心情好定坏,吃冰真的很爽。




心情不好的时候,我超想吃巧克力。

甜在心头,不想管这么多闲杂的事。

把它暂且遗忘,享受甜甜的感觉。

我爱我喜欢的东西...
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WAN. YSYS.

在你面前,我不需要假装。

我可以很自然坐在你前面。

不开心我不用隐藏;伤心难过我可以掉眼泪。

因为你总是可以把我看透。


在你面前,我就像个小孩。

不停的闹,不停的乱,不停的整你,你就好似生气地模样我就是爱看。

你总爱在众人面前和大家来欺负我,可私地下你就对我无微不至。

你总爱叫我 lala,好气又好爱,我很喜欢从你嘴里说出的话。





你的体贴我很窝心,你的关心我很开心,你的细心我很感动。


还记得那一次我感冒了,刚好下着小雨,我没带伞,你没开车。

放学了,你不知向那个学姐弄了把伞,你细心陪我走到巴士站。

你把伞都让我遮,自己湿了一小半。


这几天我喉咙痛得半死。

昨天几乎吞口水的意愿都没有。



你就买了药,给我吃这个还有那个,你一直逼我喝粉红色的水。

自己明明就也生病,却还假装一副没事的样子,照顾着我。

笨蛋!我很感动... T.T

虽然你骂我的样子很凶,但我觉得很窝心。

你,就是我爱的那个小偷!


你说今天要给我看魔术。

你让我下楼陪你,你让我下楼你说有话对我说。

结果你给我做了个数学题。

当加乘减除减之后,字母显示 520.1314。

我很感动,超想抱着你。

重点是你很强调那个小数点的位置。

小偷!很浪漫,谢谢你,小偷!

WAN. YSYS.






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忙 + 累

4 .

5 .

6 .

一天比一天夜睡。

我的人生何时这么忙过?

以前的我真的超懒。

动不动就这边说忙那边说忙。

Set 好的 yum cha、 看电影, 都临时ffk。

懒... 我就是不想出街。

宅,我就是爱待在家。

偶尔,想念以前宅在家的时候。

想念妈妈煮的饭菜,我都好几个月没吃妈妈煮的午餐了。

起床就是早餐,回家就是睡觉。

好累人的生活..

可是不管多累, 有一个你,永远都比我还累。

谢谢你这么照顾我。

我很感动。<3
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My special & the only 20th



Although that day we did not spent 20 hours together, but at least there was 16 hours we were together. 


Thanks for everything that you had done to me.


I appreciate the every single moment that I being with you.


You wiped away the thousand thick of dust that cover on me.


You brighten my life, you color my life, you see through my life.


You gave me everything that I ever wanted to have.


You making my life unbelievable.


You just like the prince in my dream, riding a white horse and kissing me in real.


Making my dreams come so true... 


我的人生因为有你,所以幸福。



NSWWYDXDDTB.

DLM?

BYLKW, HM?

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Nico a.k.a NC




留了8 年的头发就这样一刀挥过,不见了。


再见了,我的长发。


有人说我像 TB了,长发比较漂亮;也有人说很 cool,很好看 。





 


所以是 leng zai 定还是 leng lui 呢?=D


不管怎么样,挑战新事物最刺激不过。


喜欢这一个我,全新的我!


大家好,我叫陈 NC.


请叫我 Nico.



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恐惧

我怕,

我的思绪为你喘不过气。

我的呼吸为你喘不过气。

我的担心为你喘不过气。

我的话,你始终不愿相信,始终不愿意听。

我说了,我说了,我说了。

很多事情不一定要说出那些字眼才代表它是。

女人的直觉很准。

第六感超强。

没人比得过。

我真的害怕了。

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奇怪

我很奇怪

我知道

说不上为什么

或许就让心情这样

隔着 放着 让它冷却吧




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HATE but LOVE

I hate smoker.. indeed! 


That's everyone by my side knew that. 


But, that is a stupid contradiction for me right now. 


I like to watch ta smoking even I can't stand for that smokey smoke.


I HATE smoker, but I still.. willing to accompany ta


I didn't bother much what the hell TA doing, I'm just looking at ta.


Yes, sometimes I did blah blah-ing of course I still want ta to be good.. 


So, seriously I'm wishing ta smoke as little as ta could.


I never want to force people as I don't like people force me to0.


That's why YOU are freedom enough.  =D

Am I change a lot? LOL.


I knew that I did, seriously.


I hate smoker, but I do love to see him smoke.


So what the hell? I also don't know.







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我可以

很多事情,我们以前都看不管、看不开,

但是,当自己遇见了,其实有时候遥望远方,感觉自己的心脏,这些问题都只不过是芝麻葱皮的事。

或许我不该这么说,但有时候,真的会这样觉得,反而比较开心。

我相信这种吵闹的繁杂声音,很快就会在耳边环绕。

而且越来越多,越来越多。

我可以克服的,就是不要想太多。

能够坦白的、该坦白的时候,尽我所能,我会坦白。

毕竟,坦白还是对大家都好的方法。

生活要加油!


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11-8 ♥

或许时间太快,来不及说清。

这种感觉是好是坏,已来不及明白。

种种的原因、理由、时间、人们,都要一一克服。

严格的说,看人脸色、没胆子。

但,老子相信应该可以,没问题。

生活加油!

*眼泪给你,快乐给我![= *

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如果今天·那明天

如果今天你说:“Hello,你好。” 

那明天我是不是会喜欢你? 




如果今天你说:“我喜欢你。” 



那明天我是不是和你拍拖?


如果今天你说:“我不能没有你。”



那明天我是不是和你注册结婚?




如果今天你说:“我爱你不知到什么时候。”


那明天我是不是和你说分手?



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YOU Out!

Doctor came in and released anesthesia to my dad.


After some time, my dad woke up. 


He thought the stone was taken out from his body. 


He felt quite awesome that time.


But... When doctor came in again and said..


"The stone is to0 small. So laser failed."


Dammit. 囧. O| ̄|_


I wish that HE could being health soon, and YOU are out from his body automatically instead of doing such laser operation.





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MONEY

I feel that is perfectly good that i work for wasted my time instead of staying @home for doing nothing.

@least, I got pocket money, I earn for saving.

Standing right in front the booth, serving customer, sampling food, counting stock......

Argh...... I damn hate maths. But I regret that I don't do better in maths. Hate counting stock super duper! 

For beginning, is being hard, tired, shy for me. Act as a dilator, keep repeating the speech for every single customer. It is so bored. Smiling, keep smiling. "Greeting/ start conversation/  promoting...."

The worst part........ is my pity kelian feets...... Standing for whole day..... that only two break time for me to sit for 2 hours. Oops... no! Not exactly 2.. Cut off the minutes that took away for walking, buying food.... that's only left 40-45mins for each break. Argh....................... tiring!

One day 24 hours..... 12 hours working time..... left 12 hours..... tak cukup la tuhan! >.<

But, everything is worth for MONEY!

No MONEY No BREAD No LIFE.

Jia you! 陈NC!




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一切平安

今早大家纷纷 5-6 点就起床。

姑姑他们是因为扫墓去。

而妈、哥、妹准备陪我爸...  去就住院。

而我却因为工作,没办法陪他一起去。

老头子他明天就开始动手术了。

我不知道是 laser 还是动刀。

但,愿一切平安无事,手术顺顺利利。

医院那边的 2 颗蛋配白饭 真的没有你老婆煮的好吃。

老爸,等你回家。


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2503



今天2503,大日子。


我家老大生日!


期待他今天从 Seremban 回来。


他从没离家这么久过,这次却是两个星期。


虽然,间中他有 “偷跑” 回来过,可因为我工作在身,回到家累了,都没正眼看他一下。


论平时在我们家很少看到吃到蛋糕店的蛋糕,今天有口福啦!


我这老哥,脾气也是不好。


说实在我们家的人脾气的很奇怪。


有时候明明想要表达心中那份情,可往往就是表错的出来。


上一秒说了,下一秒就后悔死了,碍于面子就算了。


我们家中的呢关系都还不错啦!


时好时坏,sampat 的咯!


不过,我知道我们彼此都相亲相爱的。=]


他呀!NS 都没去过,真可怜。


亏我这当老二的都独立咯!Aha!


好啦!生日快乐~ 快点回来,不然吃掉你的 black forest! =P


Cute? =D
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钱对我来说很重要

Yea~ ! 有工开,饭碗有保啦!

哈!好久毋这样有工作的日子了。

没工作,就没得娱乐,生活也比较闷了。

X 工作 = X 娱乐 = 闷。 [囧]

钱对我来说很重要,没有钱你想要的东西,哪里找免费的?

别光说 shopping 要花钱,你身上没钱,朋友邀你出门都会嫌你。

有些会说知道知道转个身又在问你:“Eh,几时得空哦?”

知道家里不是什麽可以伸手就有 $$$ 给你花的,成熟是唯一减轻他们的负担。

如果说同样的原因,大家都会嫌烦啦!
从小到大,朋友一jio,很多时候都是这个原因,但是碍于面子,很多时候只能说忙。

心里其实也不知道多想要,可是知道自己是什麽菜,不能的时候,总该学会拒绝。

以前不能的时候,总会对爸妈发脾气,现在懂事了,但是脾气还是没收敛!囧
现在知道了。他们年长了,家里还有个妹要毕业了也需要大笔钱。

陈NC, 加油!=]
虽然做工很累,但最累的莫过于脚和嘴。

要站到break time才有的坐,要站到放工才有的回。

要说到break time才有的吃,还不能停嘴,回到家睡觉了,嘴巴总算休息了。

陈NC, 加油!
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头脑思绪阻拦 

手脚动弹变懒 

慵懒躺在床上

睡不着看看天花板...

在家,温暖窝在被里,什么都不要烦.

11 点钟,手机没响,我起床.

不想理,不相关,不想管。

我就是要这样慵懒。

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谁?



          你是谁?




                我是谁?


                                                                                      
        他是谁?




那... 你是谁?


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希望

今天有完没完
过得不知的慢
明天有没明天
一切只能盼望

地球停止旋转
重获美丽世界
没有天灾人亡
幸福人生地方

故事可以重写
历史不能改编
发生只能遗憾
人生只能感叹












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夜了,要睡了吗?

那些恐惧可以忘了吧?

害怕,当然还是会怕!

谁会真能确定平静的马来西亚真的依旧太平?

真怕夜晚睡着了,被大水冲了都不晓得。

马来西亚设备不如人,人家巩固的家都被吹个东倒西歪的,我们会是somo样子?

真是不敢想象。
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保佑

愿天下太平。保佑日本灾民早日脱离险境。

祈求地球不要在生气了,人类迟来的迁悔总比没有来的早吧?

地球,放过人类吧!

不要末日,不要没有明天的未来,我们人生还不过半载,今天刚出世的宝宝还没满一岁。

地球,不要做坏的一方。

地球,是保护人类的避风港。

地球,是人类的家,动物们的栖息地,植物的生长区。

愿天下太平。保佑日本灾民早日脱离险境。
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你的问题还是我的问题

纳闷,我快疯了。

或许会被认为我的性格很极端,但是我知道我不是。

最近都有好几个人让我快 ki siao。

是我拒人于千里之外太久了所以不懂得和人家沟通?

顶还是他们根本听不懂我说的话?

有些时候,我说这东西,他们说嗯、好的,过了一阵子,又问我。

他妈的,我的心情真的很糟。

一个人就算了,为什么是几个呢?

问同一个问题,是谁都会 dia gong[抓狂] 吧!

我真觉得是我的问题吗?

是我失去了沟通能力让人家很难明白我说的话吗?

我真是搞不懂。





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听我说[梦]话

夜长多梦 属实属假?
梦醒就幻灭 留下熟悉的感觉
摸不着头绪 想不起出现的人是谁


梦 谁能记得它开始在何方
结束却是死于梦中而惊醒

你是否曾经梦到一半听到闹钟响
但你却不知觉那是来自你世界的声音

有时候一个声音把你的梦毁了 [美梦]
有时候一个声音却把你 “救” 了 [噩梦]

上次看了那部 nightmare on elm street 我就发了个梦
就那一刀他一挥过来我就醒了
是马上睁开双眼 看看是否自己还在

是否曾经如此从噩梦惊醒?
是否睡醒枕头一片湿热?

我真觉得这部电影拍得真是好
Christopher Nolan 把梦的故事写得真的很棒
让我摸不着头绪的事情 大概有个理解了
原来现实的5分钟确是梦里的1hr
怪不得我明明记得我睡不久 可梦却这么长
有时候还有多个梦捆在一起


整个故事看起来对我虽是复杂
但是正是这样的东西没有办法去细细解释
正因为这样更是吸引好奇的双子


我不懂这个梦里有梦是否存在
如果那是存在的话,人们会怎么样?
要是一个人真的在梦里的梦死掉
那不是像电影般刺激的再进入一个梦把自己救活?
开玩笑啦!


不管怎么样,这部戏,赞!







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2℃ 失望

昨晚...Oops..不,凌晨。我睡的不是很好。

我承认那一件事刚开始的时候,我真的没有放多少心思在理。

我甚至以玩玩的心态面对。后来,的确多少影响了我。

算了,就这样,我恢复了很自由的心情。

换着衣服的时候,脑海想着这些还热的事情。

吡吡吡~ 探头一看,咦!是快递。

我知道我要的东西来了。

我把头发随性的扎了起来,抱着欢乐的心情出门签收啦!

嗯,我是Nicole。

签了回来,把那宝放在床头上,让后去吃早餐了。

吃饱饱了以后回房间啦!“好吧!是你的时候了,我要看你了。” 我把它拆了看。

结果...是很让我失望的。



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说了再见

一直不敢再听这首歌

害怕心涌上一阵悲

难以释怀的心情该谁来安慰

刚刚无意间的插播曲


脑海浮现好多好多画面


闭上眼睛一切就像昨天


才发现 眼角尽没有一丝泪


时间静悄悄地已带走一切 


只能偶尔间无意的怀念




这是我一个人的感叹 
没有要给任何人负担

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一个人。找谁

忘记了所有 不关我的一切
静静的享受 独自个人世界

想不起的画面 关盏灯熄灭
忘不了的情节 摆在心里面

一个人的夜 害怕鬼闯人间
闭上了双眼 鲜血四处可见


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决定

遥远的距离 何时会拉近
就算近在眼前
心里又有什么反应
爱不爱你 不是我的决定
就算牵起了手 明天终究要分离
爱不爱你 不是我的决定

说一句 I promise 下一秒消失
醒了你在哪里
你的名字、你的样子
我模糊的记忆 拼凑不出你完美
你完美的脸型

答不答应 我不能下决定
因为不在身边 遗忘了你的关心
答不答应 我不能下决定
不想恋上手机 找不到你的温度


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我 ♥ night blogging.

夜了,不睡觉,在干什么呢?

哦!不,只是享受夜里没人打扰思绪的宁静。


夜了,不睡觉,在干什么呢?

哦!不,只是想在宁静的夜晚享受周杰伦的歌。


夜了,不睡觉,在干什么呢?

哦!不,只是... 有时候会想太早睡了,一天就这样过了,很可惜。


夜了,不睡觉,在干什么呢?

哦!不,只是想放空脑袋 什么都不想的啪啦啪啦的share 一 share心里话。


自从有了Princess宝贝,我就开始 上夜晚打部落格!

这是很棒的事,也是享受人生的小小点缀。

night blogging.


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风吹得再大
都不能把你从心里吹走
回忆再少许
撕了都还有痕迹遗留





昨夜,
心中那盏灯熄灭了。
是谁把她坦然关上?





明日,
又有谁愿意为她点亮
还原一个光谱心情?


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